Bubblebou

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jlsC1ruBS3Y


Cada vez que oigo esta musica me acuerdo de ti! Por todas las noches que la hemos bailado en tu habitacion, por las risas que hemos compartido, los secretos, por tu amistad...Y por todo eso y mucho más te lo dedico aunque no tengas ni idea que tengo este livejournal y nunca lo sabrás
Entonces...nos vemos en la noche...en Bora Bora! :)
Te echo muchisimo de menos AB! Hasta Septiembre!

I haven't written in months! Dunno exactly why, but there was so much to study at in the end I never remembered to post something, and since my friends are always touching my laptop I didnt really wanted them to find out about Bubblebou, even though they dont understand english very well, one of the reasons why I usually dont use my own language.

I feel really comfortable at Spain, but sometimes I just missed my friends and family too much. Not only that, but just being in your own city again makes me much more at ease. Your home is your home, after all.

Sometimes I feel so scared. Scared of being too ugly, of failing all my grades, of getting attached to people, scared that the guy i like finds out, scared of never be able to go on with my life.

Do you ever feel that no matter what happens, you keep trapped in the same place? No matter how much you struggle, you always end right just where you began. It's so frustrating sometimes.

I don't understand the person I'm becoming. Teenage personality changes should have ended at 18. Never thought I could mess up with some guy I never saw before and act life nothing happenned after it. Like it didnt matter at all. Did it matter? I honestly dont know. I felt nothing for him, yet I let it happen. I dont even know if, should I had been at Reus and having seen him around at least some times or even at college or something like that if I would have gone all the way like he wanted to.

Gosh I'm such a slut. And I dont know why I think this - its not like I'm tottaly horny like a lot of my friends from back there, but just when did all of this started meaning so little to me? Don't misunderstand me, it was pleasurable at some moments, but emotionally I felt nothing at all.

Mad I tell ya, mad! xD Speaking of nicer things, I wanna start writing again! Since I felt the story I'm currently working on at Reus I think i will update the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince parody I bagun writing last year or so, I only have 4 chapters updated and I planned one for each chapter of the book :P so quite a bit of work left hun?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cxXsbY35Uys

Porque és meu porto seguro
Não lamentes se vou embora
Guardo-te dentro do meu peito
Lembrai-te-ei toda a minha vida

Sometimes its really hard to cope with all their shit. We have a new clinical case for next week, even though exams are coming and we don't really have much time to do it now. I felt tired so I didnt went to classes, but turns out that they passed a list so we could put the work groups with four people, and turns out I'm the only one left, since they only forgot about me although I wasnt the only one who was missing.

I'm so sick of this. And the girl who was warning me couldnt even remember my name. After 5 bloody months! It's not fair, just because I'm not spanish like them they just love to pretend I cant understand them and therefore dont need to pay me attention. My friend asked one of the groups who was a member short, and the guy said I could join people from other groups - translated, fuck off.

They are just so mean sometimes, and have a lack of education who wouldnt be tolerated at Portugal. Still like little children, pathetically egocentric and silly, yet they are getting all the grades while I'm failing everything.

It's so hard to keep a good face some days, I feel like crying and screaming at their stupid faces all the time. I will start doing so, since they're so naive they dont understand its not normal to say such things to people and not expect them to feel hurt of angry.

I wanna go home, I need my friends my family my languague, I need escape from this bloody land even if only for a week. I cant rest cause they're always screaming I cant study cause I'm not able to focus I hate catalan I cant stand all their moaning and bitching it's so annoying they just notice you when they need anything sometimes I hate them all so much

Been sleepy all day since there's no way we can do it at night in this resi...sometimes it really makes me nuts, since i dont sleep at evening I cant cope with the lack of sleep so well like them and I cant pay attention at classes.

And I hate when people enter my bedroom to speak with my friend and dont even bother to say hi to me. Spanish can be really mean even though they probably dont realise it.

Exams are coming again, and I am already scared...wat if it does wrong again, how can i look at people in the eye?

Sometimes I feel so stupid ir hurts.

ver,
que ya no piensas en mi
que ya no crees en la gente
que tomas pastillas rosas
y te has vuelto nihilista
y sueñas con no soñar
entraria en tu luz
con una canción sencilla
tres notas y una bandera
tan blanca como el corazón
que late en tu cuerpo de niña

estaria tan lejos de ti
que ya no recuerdo el momento
en que te dije por última vez
que el cielo se estaba abriendo
y se abre bajo tus pies
y quiero que vengas conmigo
a cualquier otra parte

ver,
que no sabes decir que no
que vivo en pisos oscuros
y tengo dos mil razones
para olvidarme de todo
y no pensar mas que en tu voz
entraria en tu luz
con una canción sencilla
tres notas y una bandera
tan blanca como el corazón
que late en tu cuerpo de niña

estaria tan lejos de ti
que ya no recuerdo el momento
en que te dije por última vez
que el cielo se estaba abriendo
y se abre bajo tus pies
y quiero que vengas conmigo
a cualquier otra parte

It's almost Queima back in Porto! Its so weird how time passes by...Looks like I've only been here for a little while, but it will be 6 months soon. New freshmen will pass through the same thing I did last May. It was a wonderful moment, and I'm very happy to be able to be near my friends again although I no longer belong with them anymore.
I've been missing home a lot these days. . I miss speaking my languague so much... When I'm with the other portuguese students it seems we can't stop speaking in our languague, and I miss behind at home and with my friends chatting and laughing like we used to do. Hope a week will be enough to recover in Easter.



Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we will be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

I've been failing all my exams so far, and even though I try to keep calm it's been making me more and more depressed...somehow I expected that from the moment I entered Medicine everything would be okay and I didn't need to work anymore.

So naive

Writing in spanish is still a bit hard for me, and I've got a 5,000 words essay to deliver in two weeks and it looks like a seven year old could have wrote exactly what I did so far, if not better.

Grow up at last

So, time's up and we're back at where we started xD I miss being at home though, and the exams are making me crazy...it'll be two weeks of total madness, it seems.

Don’t wanna run on your command
Don’t wanna keep on commin’ back
Don’t wanna swallow all your lies
Wanna feel alive
Don’t wanna hold on to your truth
Don’t wanna keep on lovin’ you
Don’t wanna look through jaded eyes
Wanna feel alive

We are dogs unleashed
You and I
We are dogs unleashed
You and I

We are dogs unleashed
Out of control
Full of dreams
Nobody knows
Unleashed
Dyin’ to escape
We don’t wanna
Suffocate
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
Tonight
Tonight

We gonna scratch
We gonna bite
We turn your game into a fight
We’re howlin’
To the moon at night
Tonight
We are dogs unleashed
You and I
We are dogs unleashed
You and I
We are dogs unleashed
Out of control
Full of dreams
Nobody knows
Unleashed
Dyin’ to escape
We don’t wanna
Suffocate
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed

Touch me
Treat me
Love me
Feed me

Dogs unleashed
We are dogs
Unleashed
Dogs unleashed…

Tonight

Just heard this song from tokio hotel and it rocks!! Its totally awesome, even thought the german version is better and i dont usually like their english ones, but it sure has lots of meaning and wonderful to hear him singing :)